Post by A Dream Is A Wish (Old) on Mar 27, 2014 16:03:31 GMT -5
It's really complicated. Even that long post didn't cover it all.
Part of it is that I don't like some of the Bible's teachings. Unlike most people, I followed them to an extreme in my past and now that I'm free from them (but this doesn't mean I act crazy), I have a happier life than I did before.
The bigger part is how crazy I've seen people behave because of religion. My Mom and I are close now and she's apologized for what she did in the past, but when I was growing up she would hit me and call me possessed. She also had schizophrenia and would hallucinate having visions of heaven, hell, demons, and more.
My Uncle used to call me possessed, too, and abuse me. I hate him and will never speak to him again in my life.
I've met a lot of other people who are either schizophrenia or they are hooked on drugs who claim they are so spiritual and will tell me disturbing hallucinations they've had, calling them visions.
And I had an ex who would have seizures and think he was having a vision. To the point where he wouldn't get medical treatment for his "visions" even though I saw him have a seizure in front of me. He even had a seizure right before we broke up and made a point of telling me that God told him to break up with me. He wound up taking that back later and telling me God was cursing him for breaking up with me. *rolls eyes*
I have had people try to faith heal me and fail.
I had an Uncle that was an evangelist who used to lie to steal people's money.
And the Christian men I've dated versus non-Christian have been more cruel sexually and perverted than the non-Christian ones. I was almost raped by one of them on a first date, but I physically fought him. "No" wasn't in his vocabulary apparently, even when I made it clear before we ever kissed that I didn't want it.
And this isn't even talking about all the times I've been judged or taunted by Christians.
Everything I've ever thought God told me to do turned out to be untrue on top of all of that.
I've also, recently, had a Christian tell me I was a liar because there's no way Christians could be this horrible. I am never speaking to that person again. I wanted to smack him in the face. I told him that if Christians don't face that there are people like this in their religion that it will destroy their religion.
I have new experiences unfortunately all the time with Christians.
But I honestly DO NOT hate religion. Because I so strongly believed in it, I understand how it can be comforting and beautiful. I think the fact that I do not believe in religion anymore, instead of hating it entirely, after my experiences is a mild reaction to what happened.
